For Sale

And just like that, our house is for sale. 

After a couple of horrible weeks of packing, purging, fixing, and cleaning, our house went on the market. 

17 years ago, we moved into this house when our oldest was only two weeks old. Two of our kids were even born in this house. There are a whole lot of memories, good and bad, in this house. It has been a safe harbor from the world for us. The one constant in an inconsistent life. 

As soon as the sign was put into the lawn, it hit me like a ton of bricks. We're selling the only home my kids have ever known. After our realtor left after the sign went in and the lock box went on the door, I had gone into the laundry room to change the load over. Dan came in and hugged me; and that was all I needed to just completely loose it. Wracking sobs hit me harder than I wanted. There was something so final about the sign going in that I wasn't expecting. It seems so silly to be attached to something like a house; but yet, I am. There are so many emotions and thoughts going through my head, that I am having a hard time forming them into cohesive sentences. 

Maybe I'll write more when I've been able to process it fully.